bad bad day.
heart damn pain ..
leg damn pain ..

this time it's really over.
it's all gone.

now i totally hate myself.
i so feel like saying goodbye to this world now ...
goodnights, forever .

it's day 136 ..
it felt like just yesterday ..
everything felt so new,
and yet, it's gonna be over ..
if only today would stay forever ..
if only everything would go on as per normal
after day 137 ..

it was sposed to be a day of happiness,
of celebrations.
but now, i dread the coming of tomorrow.
i dread the result of what tomorrow might bring.
and i thot forever would be for you and i ..
but sadly,
our forever was just one day short ..

i love you baby,
and that's all there ever is to it ..
i love you lynette ng qi jun !

hellos everyone!
((:

i'm blogging in his account without informing him.
but nevermind right? =p

haha.

TOSHI!
i wanna tell you i miss you. (:
see you later kay.
-hugstight.

youaremybest.(:


*ling.^^

i might not seem like the safest bet.
but all i'm asking you,
is don't write me off just yet.

hmm,
i like that song. ^^
i dont really know what to blog,
so, whatever. ~.~

takecare world.

there's only one word to describe everything now, ..

RAWR !

oh just shoot me -.- ..

my one last update before i go to japan ..

yupps. you heard right,
im going back to Japan for awhile.
about a week or so.
I'm not going back for a holiday ..
it's because my grand dad just passed away. =(

all these while,
i thot i was strong enough to throw everything,
and leave this country for good,
but it turns out that now, im just leaving for one week,
and im already having second thoughts about going.

there's just so many things,
so many memories,
so many people,
i can't bear to leave.
i just can't bear to live on without them.

when i thought i was strong enough,
i'm this weak ..
i dont care if the world laughs at me,
at least im strong enough to admit it.

have a good week people who still bother to read this.
i know my absense will be a big problem to some people in my life.
and im sorry im leaving at such short notice.
but everything happened so suddenly.
if i had the chance, i'd bring everyone with me.
but i cant. =(

well then,
do take care when im not around okay ?
and dont worry,
i wont stop thinking about you. people all the time.

goodnights singapore. (:

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁
你是我的专属天使
唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我心上
拥有一个专属天使
我哪里还需要别的愿望

<33*

when one is about to lose something,
they would know.
especially when it means the world to them.
and then one gets scared,
paranoid of everything around them.
but then its okay,
everyone is entitled to be afraid once in awhile.

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sometimes i wonder,
my post never gets happy anymore. =\
they get more and more emo each time i blog.
well, then again,
when have i ever really blogged about anything happy anyways.
its only at times when im down and out,
will i feel like doing the tedious job of logging into blogger,
and type a few hundred letters of crap in here
and then just disappear for a long while again.
how sad can life be.
althought friends, they always say that,
i'll always be here for you and shit like that,
but hey, even if you're there,
you wont even know how i feel.
you can't even tell whats wrong with me,
especially when i can't explain myself good enough.
so what's the point of having someone there at all =\
i dont get it.
rawr ?

okok, let me just stop this crap =.= ..
its all just nonsense. i dont even know what im saying anymore.
all i know is my head's spinning,
and everything around me is still a blur =.="

i wanna go hug my pillow and sleep tonight.
bolsters just dont feel the same anymore =D !
-_-" LOL.
im really going crazy. oh whatever.
baibai !

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PS. eLF, YOU WANT MUSIC BOX MAH ?!
FASTER COME BACK FROM BOWLING LEH ! KAO EH.
I DAMN SIAN LEH ZZ. YOU TELL ME 9 + 10 ! NOW GOING TO 11 LE !
!&^%$#^ I DOWAN HELP YOU LE ! =O xD
JK !