like a grain of sand on the blazing desert.
still wishing i could be the only grain of sand
to fight off the rest if a sandstorm should come.

but i feel so much less important now.

here's a little story for everyone to laugh about.

i'm just being a little too bored here so just bear with me =p

okay let's start off by introducing the main lead !

MR ONION HEAD BOY !

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SCHOOL SEMESTER I

Mom: BOY AH ! WAKE UP LIAO ! TIME FOR SCHOOL !

OnionHeadBoy: ... har ? already ? let me sleep awhile more can ? ..zzz.

*Mom grabs alarm clock and brings it to his son's face.

Mom: LOOK AT THE TIME ! GOING TO LATE LIAO LAH !

*OnionHeadBoy slowly opens his eyes to take a peek at the clock.

OnionHeadBoy: WAHHHHHHH ! LATE LIAO LAH !

.. and so OnionHeadBoy rushed to bathe and blah blah blah,

and eventually arrived at school.

so he went to class and just sat at some random seat,

and fell asleep while waiting for class to start ..

MsRight: .. ermm, excuse me, but i think you're on my seat.

OnionHeadBoy woke up and raised his head to take a look at who that was,

and OHH MYY GODD !

OnionHeadBoy: (THAT IS THEEEE MOST PREEEEETEEEST GIRL I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE ! OMGOMGOMG!)

OnionHeadBoy: urmm.. eh.. I.. you.. urmm.. hehe.. (WHAT A DORK !)

MsRight: i'm sorry, but urmm.. you're on my seat.

OnionHeadBoy: OH OH. yeah, right ! i'm sorry. you can have it back. i'll just be sitting around here.. urh.. here.. urh i mean.. yeah, just around here (BESIDE YOU !)

MsRight: thank you. (BLUSH !)

AND SO HERE COMES A WONDERFUL BEGINNING FOR MS RIGHT AND MR ONIONHEADBOY!

TO BE CONTINUED ..

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P.S.

words in blue is what the narrator (ME) is saying.

words in red belong to OnionHeadBoy.

words in pink belong to MsRight.

xD

this silence stayed with me during the day,
and brought me all the way thru to the night.
and just when i thought i was strong enough to withstand anything,
a rush of emotions came barging thru and washed me to my feet.
and here i was, defeated,
with nothing to hold on to,
and only silence stays be me tonight.

waiting on the other side,
for a call, an sms, anything.
just any form of communication.
it was already 2.
but i still heard nothing.

my phone was silent throughout the night..

i was worried,
and i must've have called about a dozen times more.
but all it did was brought me to your voicemail.

and i continued to wait, alone on this rainy night..

when you came online,
i msn-ed you almost immediately.
asking about what happened.
and you told me you were out with a friend,
and that your phone was flat.
i could've understood but look at the time !

and then i went off to bed, trying my best to sleep..

i tossed and turned.
my bed should already be totally messed up.
but i still couldn't sleep.
so i came down, turned on the power,
and here i am typing this mess out.

and now when i see your nick online, i don't know what to say..

i was at your place tonight. waiting for you at the void deck with half a dozen of your favourite donuts. and i waited and waited until 12 midnight and i still didn't wanna go. just half an hour more.. just another 5 mins more.. and i left your place at 0040. i walked slowly, hoping that on my way to get i cab, i might catch you. but i didnt.. you knew i was waiting, and all you said was "dont wait?" .. lol. i must've made a fool outta myself.

a new beginning,
a new life.
a new fire burning from within,
a new passion that burns even ice.

let the past be the past,
and leave everything behind us.
start a new life,
just you and i.
(:

the gods cry tonight
as love is lost admist the chaos of the world.
they feel the pain of each individual,
and they understand.
they know our pain,
and even they cry tonight.

with lightning bolts and thunder storms,
they try with all their might to sever these ties.
to lessen our pain, to lighten our burdens,
but only to find that even the gods could not destroy love.
even the gods could not defy mother nature.

and as i close my eyes and listened to this falling rain,
listening to the gods cry for lost love,
i knew deep in my heart,
this will be my final piece to my symphony,
my dying symphony.

and this will be my final entry.
my final blog piece.
and until we meet again,
only death sits with me,
side by side ..

what you don't see, still exists.
what you don't feel, isn't fake.
what you don't hear, is still said.
what you don't smell, is still in the air.


sometimes,
whatever you see isn't true.
whatever you feel isn't real.
whatever you hear are lies.
whatever you smell is simply air.


so,
don't be too quick to judge.
don't be too anxious to pass down a verdict.
search for the truth beneath the surface.
and you will find, things are never the way they seem to be.


don't expect what you cannot fufill,
and don't listen to what you can't believe.

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let this headache be the death of me.

how i wish you could hear me now.

but how can it ever be possible..

first of all,
i wanna thank each and everyone that came down to celebrate my birthday. (:

lyn - thank you for wanting to come down with me and taking care of me.
clarence - thank you for making it down and i'm sorry you had to go back after that. x_x
kenny - thank you for coming down even when you weren't in the best of moods.
bear - thank you for sharing the burden of the bill.
cina - thank you for even bothering to come down when i barely even knew you.
ahfu - thank you for making drinking more fun than it was sposed to be.
kel - thank you for turning up even right after camp.
melkoh - thank you for drinking up more of the liqour than me =p
leo - and the same goes for you too, thank you =p
xianda - thank you for making it even when ur exams are here. =D
squadmates - thank you for taking time off just to come down and i'm sorry i haven't really been much of a good host. =p
shan - thank you for turning up even when you didnt really know how to go and being alone.
gerald - thank you for taking to effort to come down even after work. (:
lux, caocao, justin - thank you for specially making this trip down just to wish me happy birthday. ((:
pearly - thank you for that 2 glasses =D even thou you were not very much around most of the time. =p
sharon - thank you for the happy birthday. (:

thank you everyone for making this day special. ((:

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today just isn't working well.
not for me, not for you.

i dont really know what to say at the moment,
or want to say anything at all.

there's nothing i can work out here
but a simple sorry.

...

maybe i'll just freak off and die.

i was so weak,

when i should've been strong.

... uberly speechless.

HAH !
school start already. ~_~

urhh, lets talk about orientation day ..
well, on the first day,
i went there @ 1230 cause that's the time it's sposed to start !
then when i got there,
one of the course advisor (?) said today is orientation day.
it starts at 1530 ! -___-
so i got damn sian and went home !
slack abit then after that i went back to school.

so this is what i did there ..
first off, we had to know the names of our our group people (3 -4)
then memorized their names and then introduce them.
after that we had some quiz thing. -_-
the first question we got,
HOW MANY HOTELS ARE THERE IN SG?! LOL.
then my group people one from india, one from philippines. -_-
but the question is MCQ.
so there's 102 112 122 132 -__-.
my india friend rajesh just shouted 102 !
LOL. and the scary part is, ITS CORRECT ! HAHAHAHA. wth right ?
anyway, yah =.= ..
blah blah, after all the questions came talent-time !
we were sposed to sing or write or draw something blah blah.
LOL.
in the end i just wrote some shit up there. =.= ..
and thats the end of the day !
hahas.

and today is first day of school proper. ^^
first module i'm doing is business operations.
and my teacher and kenny both said,
its the most difficult module so -_- GG.
yah, and the teacher like talk like .. woohoo.
catch no ball. LOLS.
yah and then the students behind me kick my chair.
then they say, BORING BORING ! LOL.
i just turn ard and YAH YAH YAH ! ROFL. bth -_-

then yupps. thats the end of school for this two days ~_~ rawr.