i'd like to say sorry to 2 special someones in my life.
today,
i let what i was sposed to control get outta control.
i did it and only to regret it later.
i threw one of the most terrible temper.
and after i did, i felt bad.
in fact, i felt like shit.
and im sorry.
all this time i tried to control this terrible temper of mine.
yet somehow, i let it go today.
maybe i just wasn't feeling well.
or maybe thats just another excuse to make myself feel better. -.-
but whatever it is,
i wanna say that im really sorry for what happened.
and i promise i`ll try not to let it happen again =(

i just hate being treated like i dont exist.

okay ~
after a series of talks,
i came to realise i`ve made some mistakes myself.

so im sorry for that and well,
im sorry. -.-

i hate that word.
but who told me to be in the wrong.
aiyah. nvm.
thats it. bye !

hello again.
now, regarding the two posts below,

if you really aint happy with what the fuck i say,
or am talking about,
go ahead. look me up.
just bring whoever or whatever you have with you
and find me.
i`ll gladly redefine pain for you.

good day motherfuckers.

if i really am biased or one sided.
then so be it. =D
it always beats not considering how the other party feels.
like how i really dont give a damn about how you feel
and flaming you. ^^

you wanna win, you wanna feel that you're right.
hey by all means.
LOL.
i dont really care.
to get your way, you manipulate people,
you make yourself heard,
only to let them hear how pathetic you feel.
just so you'd feel good.
whatever you say you're just telling me,
i feel so sad, pity me please. =O
and there is hiro,
hes so mean to me. he doesnt think about how i feel. >"<
TALK ABOUT BEING BIAS. WOOHOO.
check that line out.
its saying: IM BEING BIASED TO MYSELF!
rofl.
if you were to consider how others might feel first,
then maybe all this wouldnt happen =D

bottomline,
HI, reflect. =D

once again,
another post that goes out to the people around me.

i've heard alot this two days.
from people that used to be close to my heart.
and im thinking,
is this all really necessary ?

why do you need to go around degrading people.
why do you even bother ?
let whoever it is you are degrading be as he is,
nobody is blind, they will see for themselves.
there is no point in bad mouthing about other people,
especially behind their backs.
you get nothing good in return,
instead, eyes that look upon you with a different gaze.
what would they think of you now ?
badmouthing gets you no where boy.
let others see and judge for themselves.

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why do you ask the unnecessary?
havent anyone taught you to think before you talk?
so what if you need to clarify things ?
are your own feelings more superior than the others around you ?
have you spared a thought for how they might feel ?
and by saying that, i dont mean to put yourself in the persons shoe,
and how YOU might react to things you are about to say.
but to put in yourself in that persons shoe and think
how will THAT PERSON react to what you are about to say.
besides the point,
why do you even bother raking up the past ?
havent you heard what someone once said,
let bygones be bygones.
so what is your point for bringing up past events.
especially unhappy ones.
think before you speak.
or the consequences might be harsh,
even for you, to take.

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dont let small talks like this affect you.
although what people say feels like needles to your heart.
just take it easy.
it doesnt really matter what they have to say.
you live the kinda way of life you wanna live,
and stay that way.
if they cant take it,
then they're just not good enough to be your friend =D
and there really isnt much to be angry, upset about.
matters of the past will stay in the past.
dont let that affect you.
and besides, with friends like me around.
you have no reason to be upset !! =D
do take care. ((:

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if you got something to say about what i have to say here.
go ahead, theres a comment box there for you. (:
but bear in mind, if you wanna leave something there
that you think might piss me off,
i think you better do that somewhere else. =D

hmm, the posts up there with different colors are each meant for one person.
so go figure. im sure you know who you are.
but if you really dont, i dont mind slapping the whole thing in your face.

goodnight everyone =D

i

feel

like

shit

!

argh. =\

new skin yo !

hello again everyone.
i know i haven't been blogging lately,
so yeah ! =D
hiro is here to update.

hahas.
the reason why i didnt wanna blog,
wasn't because i was feeling lazy.
it was simply because,
the skin just wasn't right.
i mean, the graphics and everything were cute.
but damn, they make my entry look so ugly?!
hahas.
and the space to read it,
is pathetic !!
rawr.
so yupp !
changed to something more 'read-able'?
hahas.
at least now after i blogged,
i can see what i blog,
and i feel like reading it myself (:

hmmm, nothing much really happened this few days.
thats why i didnt blog much.
and i havent even been visiting my friends blogs.
-_-
i feel quite outdated about everything.
so decided to do that tonight.
=D ahh ..
hiro feels updated again ! =x

sometimes,
to not see,
not hear,
not feel,
is the only way one can be happy.
sometimes..

maybe its good to just not care sometimes.
hmm.
that's all i wanna say.

smiles,
x`0uch-
#13.