so many words,
so many emotions.

i wish i could put it all down in words,
but i am afraid.
i am unable.

my world is grey..

as the sun sets upon this weary land,
my heart sinks with her to the very bottom.
with much uncertainties that lay ahead,
still i must walk this path, to wherever it may lead.

what happened to that guiding light that shone so brightly.
what happened to the roads that were once so well-paved.

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strong as one may be,
not one could destroy all that they love.
even to his dying breathe,
he would stand and protect them with all that he has.

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i am what i am.
i am unable.

and so he says he's strong.
and so he says he's 'man'.
and so he says he's good.
and so he says he's all that,
but he's not.

somewhere along the way,
he's gonna lose it.
somewhere along this path,
he's gonna fall.
somewhere along this life,
he's gonna breakdown and die.

...

MENTAL NOTE: -

it's true that people change time after time.
soon enough, friends leave, close ones part.
for one reason or another,
it's inevitable,
it's part of life.

but suddenly you see people blaming one another,
because they've changed.
because they weren't there for you when you needed them.
because they promised a friendship that's forever,
but never did manage to keep them.

then again,
they change too without even noticing it.
they never took the time to self reflect.
but so what if they did ?
they would still point fingers,
they would still blame.
it's all just human nature.
the ugly side of man.

life was never about blaming each other for changes,
but trying to be there to support your family and friends,
to go through with such changes.
life was never just about you.
it's how you accept or reject these changes.
so tell me now, who's to blame when life as you've always known,
starts to change ?
(here we go again. who's to blame for this and that.)

a night filled with emotions,
with not one word to fit the description.
i tried with the limited vocabulary i have,
and this was the only thing i could come up with.

broken.

and now !

for ONIONHEADBOY again :D

SEMESTER I PART II

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"BRRRRIIIINNNNNNNNNG" (Class is starting..)

OnionHeadBoy: shit shit shit ! bell ring liao ! faster find seat !

.. and he finally found one behind her instead ! (how lucky.)

Teacher: Good Morning class. Today we're gonna talk about ...
Teacher: ...........................

Teacher: .......................................................................
Teacher: .......................................... (This lesson is SOOOO one way.)
Teacher: .................................
Teacher: .......... . . . . . . . . (LOL. okay okay. I'll stop. =x)

"BRRRRRIIIIIIINNNNNNNNGGGGGGG" (SCHOOL ENDS!)

Teacher: Thank you class, and remember to hand up your assignments coming monday !
OnionHeadBoy: Thank god ! i thought this class was gonna go on forever.

OnionHeadBoy: AHA ! CHANCE ! (to talk to MsRight of course)

so OnionHeadBoy snuck up right behind MsRight and tapped her on the shoulder.

OnionHeadBoy: Hi ! Urmm, i'm OnionHeadBoy ! :D

MsRight: (stunned) ...

MsRight regained her posture and ..

MsRight: Oh right! Hi ! I'm MsRight. -PEACE. (LOL. the long awaited photo of MsRight. Honestly, were you expecting something any different from Mr OnionHeadBoy over there?)

and so, they went on blabbering about themselves ..

blah blah blah blah blah..

not long after, they found themselves sitting in the park,

at 8pm with nobody around.

OnionHeadBoy: (Ohhh, i so wanna tell her how much i wanna be with her lehh!)
MsRight: (Come on boy, just say it ! I'll say yes ! Just make A SOUND FOR GODS SAKE!)

so OnionHeadBoy decided to pluck up all his courage and pop the question !

OnionHeadBoy: Urhh... So, MsRight, will you .. Urhh.

MsRight: .. yes yes, i will ! (LOL. indeed. as long as he makes a sound.)

Well well, so this concludes the end of Part Two :D

what a nice end to it. LOL.

To Be Continued...

as i stood at the side of that busy road,
i just watched silently as you move further away,
and then i walked off, back home.

the backview of you just breaks me from within.

with the last of my strength gathered,
i stood and fought til i could, no longer.
and with my final breath, i breathed goodbye.

death always seems like the easy way out.

OKAY NOW FOR GENTING DAY TWO AND THREEEEEE.



hmmm, plans for day two were,
go breakfast and then to the theme park.
and then to KL !
and here's what i did with the plans !
breakfast ? check.
theme park ? NOT. sleep. too sick too tired. -_-
KL ? check.

so, i went to breakfast with them.
and i ate rice and curry chicken in the morning !
and when im not feeling too good.
then tio pwn alr =.= ..
lols !
after that we go back to room and clear stomach !
cos going theme park =x LOL.
but i didnt go in the end.
too sick -____- although damn wasted but
i'd rather go to KL than go theme park.
so i went to sleep and told them to call me once they're ready.
:D

AHA so here comessss KL ! :"D
my friends booked a mini van to bring us there and back.
it costs like 45rm to go there and back.
which means its about 10 dollars per person lahh.
quite worth it.
he dropped us off at urh, petaling jaya ?
like the msia chinatown =d
we went in there and walked str8 thru to the other side ! =x
never bought anything at first.
cos we were going to times square x_x
and and thats the first time i took a msia mrt ! >"<
SO COOL. LOL.
the seats is like all metal one !
then when u sit on it,
and get up after awhile,
got water vapour on the chair ! =x
like certain parts of it. =x LOL.
yah yah. then after that we walked to times square,
the quicksliver boutique just for my fren to buy a wallet.
OMG LAH. WE WALKED DAMN FAR LEH ! -_-
even after the MRT.
walk there i alr sian 1/2.
then when he buy finish wallet,
WE STILLLLL HAVE TO WALLKKKKK BACK TO PETALING JAYA.
OH MY GOD LEH.
LOL. i walk until reach back there, i wanted to go back str8 -_-
=x
anyway, so when we reached back there. it was only 5+
and we planned to go back after 10 =.=
but it was too early and we can't be walking in there for 5 hours right?!
so we decided to call the driver and change the time to 8pm come pick us up instead :D
so i started walking in there -_- ..
WAH. alot of thing to buy.
WAH. so little money.
WAH. sian =.=.=.=.= ! LOL.
so anyway, i bought a couple of things for tcgitw ! XD
shoes and belts and bags and such =D
very lazy to elaborate on the whole buying process. -___-
but it was.. CHAOTIC IN THERE. i swear !
LOL. so after that, we boarded the buss and go home.
and they kept singing malay songs on the way back
actually quite nice. =x but i dunno how to sing.
rawr. so after we got back to genting.
we went to starbucks for a drink ..
and guess what?
I FELL ASLEEP ON THE SOFA CHAIR HAHAHAHAAHA.
=x
i am one imba sleeper -_-..
but really very tired. walk damn alot leh ! Z. -_-
aiyahh ! that's about the end of that day alr ! x_x

THEN DAY THREE IS GO HOME DAY !
YAY !

nothing much happened except that we had nasilemak for breakfast.
went back to pack ALOT of stuff -_-
and then went home lah !
ASD.
ohhh. we had seafood dinner on the way back.
FREE ONE HEHE. DAMN NICE.
xDxDxD
then after that come back sg le ~_~

yayy. genting trip gone ! =x
next post is onionheadboy again ! =x

wah tio sabo by blogger -___-
i blog so long then tio delete
grrawr.

anyway, ..
IM SICK ! SHITOO !
SICK SICK SICK !
cough flu sorethroat. ._."
wah wah wah.
genting got alot of virus.
then now i tio le. =(
LOL.
okay okay.
no more whining ! xD

okay ! LETS TALK ABOUT GENTING ! =D
MUAHAHAHAHA.
i went on friday morning !
and well, basically i slept the wholeeee bus journey there.
HWAH, damn song. feel like very fast reach ! =x
okay so we went there and got our room keys,
and after that, got to our respective rooms.
roommates were assigned to us beforehand, so yeah.
i shared a room with shah.
so we went on to put our stuff down and met downstairs at the lobby.
there were 11 of us.
i cannot really rmb all their names lah,
but they were all malays lol.
so we started off by having lunch/dinner. :D
at this place called PIZZA FACTORY !
hmm, the food there quite nice. ^^
then after that, we went to take A HELL LOT OF PHOTOS.
got N SYNC shot, got BACKSTREET BOYS shot,
got YOUNG AND DANGEROUS shot. ROFL.
and we went to this place something like snowcity in sg.
LOL FREAKING COLD.
I ALMOST DIED IN THERE CAUSE I COULDNT BREATH -_-
LOL. then there was this ice slide in there !
WAH, DAMN FAST ! LOL
then u sit on this circle thing and slide down.
i cannot stop sia when reach below. -_-
i almost bang wall ! LOL.
chao xia sway ! -_-
then after that i go out le, to rest. really cannot breathe.
LOL. after come out le, take picture again !
-___-
soon after that,
we decided to go back to the hotel !
yupp, before that, went to watsons i think,
then buy toothbrush and mineral water !
cos there got no water one -_- damn louya hotel.
LOL.
then go back room SLEEP !

and then speaking of sleep, i feel damn sick now,
so i'm going to bed really soon. i continue my other two days tmr !
x_x I HATE BEING SICK !
makes me wanna put a bullet thru my head ! -_- LOL.
SO GOODNIGHTS ! xD

DIE GENTING VIRUS!
DIE SICKNESS!
DIEEEEEEE ! GRRRRRR x_x ...

as flaming rocks fall from above,
and the earth shattering below.
this is how it's like when its all falling apart.

crash&burn.

like a droplet within threatening clouds,
wishing i could hold the rain back just a little longer,
until you've found shelter within my embrace.

why is it only when you're alone when you wish i could be there.