i've had really good times in life,
and bad ones too, of course.
and i really appreciate the people in my life.

i've always had really good friends,
but i chose to be lazy,
and put them aside,
never knowing how to cherish those beside me.

it's funny how the love for one person just blinds you,
really blinds you totally from everything !
so much so that it disgusts me.
yes, i'm disgusted with myself.
for having neglected my friends for so long.
and now that i feel alone, i want them back.
how selfish can i get.
im sorry to my friends,
my brothers, and sisters.
i am truly sorry.
and also sorry,
so damn sorry for myself,
for having been so pathetic,
so weak, so blind.

dont get me wrong.
it's not that i regret loving anyone at all.
especially not you.
but it's just that,
how could i ever neglect my friends ?
it's not like i'm with you 24/7.
it's not like i have no time to spare at all.
yet, and YET i chose to be lazy.
to be selfish and insensitive.
i'm really sorry.

thank you for all the times you people spent with me,
going through my ups and downs with me.
thank you lynette for everything you've done for me.
and this whole entry doesn't mean i'll love you any less.
thank you grace for even being there at all, even when i hardly talk to you,
you'd still take the initiative to talk to me still.
thank you clarence for all the trouble i've put you into because of my laziness,
for sacrificing your time, always, for someone like me.
thank you shan, for always being there for me whenever i'm down,
never failing to let me see things in a more different light.
thank you jianling(elf) for being there to talk to me, joke with me,
playing with me and keeping me company, and even being angry for me. lol.
thank you patrick(lux), for all the times we shared together, talking and playing,
all the late night k-ings.
thank you kenny, koh, xmel, and company, for all the late night mj sessions,
just for me to help me keep my mind off things.
thank you jan for caring, for talking to me at all, i really appreciate it.

and thank you everyone, i'm sorry if i've left you out, but please,
that doesnt mean the least bit that i've forgotten about you.
that's not true. i'm just not in the right kinda mood to write any further.
now it seems that love no longer stays in one place,
but shared among many, even if majority of it still stays at a certain place. (:

good day everyone.