i cannot be more sorry than now. shit.
why do i always just sleep sleep sleep.
hiro, time to * wake up !
how could i have just slept like that.

im so sorry *ling. so sorry.
what was i thinking, sleeping like that.
sighs. i bet you tried to wake me up,
but i couldn't right. dammit.
wa* i damn suck. sorry.
i dont know how many sorry's i'm gonna say,
but dammit, im really sorry.
of all nights, i had to sleep tonight.
sighs.
im sorry..

i had a really damn bad day yesterday.
i went to work, not feeling too well.
and i heard i had to work on saturday,
the day when i was sposedly meeting lyn to go out.
and the worse thing is i can't claim that shit,
cos it's punishment for being late.
it never pays to be honest in the bloody station.
how many pple come late,
yet they put the timing @ 0830 ?
i decided to be honest and put that i was really late for 15 mins.
and now, i have to work a * 8 hours to payback as punishment ? lol?
wth is wrong with this station.
i srsly dont understand.
so if they make us go home late,
how are they gonna pay us back?
they * let us home at 1840 yesterday.
how the hell u gonna pay us back?!
bastards.
its always pay back to them and never get paid back?
is that the way its sposed to be?
there's no logic behind this.
you pay and pay and pay,
when do u ever get anything in return.
so what if its national service.
so you're telling me ur serving the nation,
and they cannot help you back?
HAH, screw this place.
seriously.

why the hell does life feel so wrong now,
everything just feels so wrong.
ITS MY DAMN LIFE AND I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT.
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG.
IT'S LIKE WHEN ONE IS BORN IN SINGAPORE,
UR LIFE ISN'T YOUR LIFE ANYMORE.
EVEN IF YOU GO SUICIDE,
YOU'RE STILL IN THE WRONG.
MY LIFE OWE SINGAPORE ONE AH.
LIKE THAT WHO WANT TO STAY HERE.
ma de ..

k totally damn sian way to start a day.
but oh wth.
time to bathe and go to work. zdotz.

im sorry lyn,
i truly am.

*hiro.