it is time for a change.
to learn from my mistakes.
and to grow up.

i've always thought i'm grown up and mature enough.
i've always thought that the world needed to change for me.
i've always thought wrong and
now i'm the biggest jerk in the whole world.

i've lived half my life with regrets and lies.
and now i really want to change.
i know i've hurt many people in my life
that i really shouldnt have.
and i'm really sorry for everything that i've done.
and i know there isn't anything i can do to make it up to everyone.
but i guess the best way to make it up,
is to change the way i am now,
and become a better person.

i want to say sorry to a particular special someone in my life.
one that i've hurt the deepest and the most.
and i'm really sorry for what i've done, and i'm honestly regretful.
let God be the judge and every reader be my witness,
i hereby solemnly swear that,
i will try my very best to change.
to never lie,
to never cheat,
to never smoke.
to never be revengeful,
to gracefully accept my faults,
and change to be a better person.

lynette,
i'm really sorry for all the wrong that i've done to you.
and i hope that you'll find it somewhere in your heart to forgive me again.
i'm know i've done you wrong,
and i know i deserve so much worse.
and i'm really thankful for all that you've done.

i love you.
and as a new man,
i swear again, my love to you.
will stay true, for now, for always and forever.
i'm sorry.