nothing much really happened recently ..

i've been sick,
feeling terrible x.x
damn i hate that feeling.
and my weekend is coming to an end.
-_- ..

6 more mths to go before i get outta this hellhole.
=.= .. i swear, this ns thing is just a waste of time.
i have nothing to do everyday but to go to the office,
sit down and stare into space,
thinking of what i could have done,
if only i wasnt there ..

dammit.

having too much free time is bad for your mind.
you start having the worst thoughts.
thoughts that could make you do things you'd come to regret.
thoughts that could destroy everything you've tried so hard to build up.
damn i hate my life now.
i swear i fcuking hate it.
but there's nothing i can do ..

you know, actually,
maybe there is something i can do,
but, for some reason,
i can't. i just god damn CAN'T.
dont ask me why, i wish i knew too. -.-

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time and again,
these words infront of me,
they give me strength,
yet sometimes they make me wanna die.

why am i what i am,
what could i have been if i wasn't me,
what difference would it make,
oh someone please tell me,
i really wish to know.

i've never felt like this before,
this dilemma im in,
its killing me, crushing me,

..

ARGH FOR FCUKS SAKE GOD,
WOULD YOU PLEASE JUST LEND ME A HELPING HAND?!
CAN'T YOU TELL IM DESPERATE?!
DAMN !
amen ? ..

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pardon my language,
but everything's been coming down on me,
bit by bit, piece by piece,
and i thought,
OHHH, its nothing, it'll pass,
i can handle it.
oh good job hiro,
cos YOU THOUGHT WRONG !

- hi hiro,

you just got owned by me! ^^

love, your ego. -