im just not good enough !

maybe one day,
my world will turn its back on me,
and leave me all alone.

i dont wanna face it.
i dont wanna admit defeat.

but if the day comes that i really fail,
if the day comes that my world decides
to finally turn its back on me.
then i wont wait for Death to look for me,
i will look for him.
and then turn my back on this world.

...
i feel so speechless,
so helpless.

im only human